Happy 2011 my lovelies!
Sorry for not writing in what appears to be forever, but my laziness has gotten the best of me. So the topic of today... Was I ever truly in love?
For those of you who don't know the story (which should be everyone!) here's the gist if it: I fell in love with him over the course of a few days and he never returned my feelings. There was no sexual contact... Or for that matter physical contact, but I think I felt what I did.
Did I honestly feel that? Was it all an illusion? What is love for that matter? Does it take forever to happen, only to leave you left with despair?
I don't have all the answers but I will write down what I have believed for the past 5 years. Yes, I did love him. For a fifteen year old chick, I did fall madly in love with him over that course of a few days. Did he feel that same? No. Do I have a right to be angry about his non-feelings? Well, no. While I can be upset it's the way that I handled the situation which leads me to believe that it's okay that he didn't return my feelings.
If I ever do see him again, I'll try not to show my anger towards what occurred, but I can't promise anything.
Until next time, let's be free to be you and me; let's be young and free.