To whomever is reading this (apart from me): weird flex, but okay.
In the future, remind me that dudes on Tinder here suck as much as they do in the Central Valley. I am better off getting a puppy for the cats.
This place...Just amazing beyond amazing. Nature is everywhere and I am soooo beyond intrigued. I am still not officially sold on this place, and I feel that this is a good thing. It would be unwise of me to think with an emotional mind, as opposed to a critical mind. So I will be criticizing this place. There aren't enough services to help those in need, but this is true of a majority of the state. (i.e. the homeless). The difference between where I live and here is that here I have yet to see the street littered with garbage. I haven't encountered drivers being douchey. That Central Valley haze is non-existent. I am further away from 'civilization' than I've ever been.
When I discussed this with a friend a few days back, she mentioned this place is beautiful, but it can be isolating. In my current state, I feel isolated. So. Fucking. Isolated.
Maybe I should just be somewhere where the location matches my soul?
Am I ready to give up the 'place in the world I've carved out'?
I say this with quotations as I feel like I don't vibe with/in Lodi. The butshit right wing (almost wrote that as white wing) of the political game has to be called on their shit. I have yet to encounter any of that shit up here. Oh, and the lifted trucks exist, but I highly suspect that people have them lifted for practical reasons as opposed to bulshit.
A lot of cute places I wanted to visit were closed today. But, on the other side, I was able to drive over 25 minutes north and was in the middle of the woods, as opposed to a town or city. That feeling was liberating.
Tomorrow, as I drive back to the cats, not "home", but to the cats, I think I'll wander a bit into nature to scream my lungs out. I've been wanting to do that for a minute. Until then, here's this, and a jam.
