1) Go back to college! I know I have mentioned this before. I believe I mentioned something about finding what I want to do with my life, and it starts with me getting a degree. I don't want to do this for anyone but myself. Looking back, I have started many projects, but I haven't completed them. I want to graduate college just to prove to myself that I can. The moment that I do, I know that I'll be able to do so many of the things that I want, as long as I stick with them and actually work at them. So what I am going to major in? I shall be the über cliche English major! I like writing. I like being able to convey ideas through my words. I like being able to write something that people enjoy reading. It gives me pleasure to know that people enjoy reading what I have taken the time to write and can relate to it. So this is what I want to major in and this is what I want to do with my life. So let's go back to school!!
2) Own less stuff!! I own so much shit. A lot of which I do not use. I find it so pointless that I own items that I haven't used in years, and others that I have not used at all. I just want to own less. I want to be able to look at what I own and not feel like it's a waste of space and money. (I also want to spend less money on shit and regularly being broke is helping with this. The broke thing is because I'm saving for a MacBook.) So I'm gonna start hauling ass and donate old clothes and other donate-able objects, and discard the rest. I'll start working on this tomorrow and write a post about this once I have finished this.
3) Get more tattoos! I have 3 tattoos which I love. One on the side of right wrist which says 'alluring', one on my inner left wrist which says 'alone', and the final one of my left shoulder which says 'forever.' I love each of these tattoos. No, wait, I have beef with them. I honestly wish that they were bigger. (I failed myself when i decided on the size.) This being said, I do have plans for other tattoos. One that I for sure am going to get is this as a tattoo. This is happening, across my upper back. Just have to pick a font and save some cash. I am also considering getting leopard print on my right shoulder, and an orchid on my ribs. I like all of these, but I'm still trying to figure out if I can commit to them or not. The final one which is a line from the book and film Gone Girl just speaks to me on so many levels. It would be a nod to the book and film, both of which I loved, but to my depression. (It is a part of me and something I am coming to terms with.) And the line? I am so much happier now that I'm dead. I seriously love this and would not mind having it on my body, but people would be dicks and ask why and then frown when I give them an honest response as to why I have this as a tattoo. But I want this. I feel like this would complete me. Maybe along my spine??
4) Be single. I have been in a relationship in which I felt trapped and I feel like being in any relationship would only lead to me being in such a situation again. (I also feel like I'm doing guys a favor by not having them be around me for longer than necessary. I may be a soul-sucking succubus. Ask my ex.) So, I shall be single and love it. I will do shit for me, when I want. Listen to music that I love, watch shit that I want to watch, and no longer shave my armpits. (I'll admit, I'm just getting lazy.) Yes, there should be guys around because I still want to get some (lots, actually, with really hot muscly guys who don't bother to ask my name, but know what they're doing and know how to kiss), and it would be nice to not have to always buy my own drinks (along with getting some), but I pledge to remain single. And so it is done!
5) Make more friends. So my social circle is lacking, and I would honestly love to have more friends. Yes, online friends, you're amazing as fuck, and may you stay that way, but it would be great to have people to hang out with IRL. It would be cool to do happy hour with peeps, or go shopping, or go check out attractive peoples while eating lunch with. It would just be really nice to have more friends that I can hang with whenever. How do I go about this? I really do need guidance.
6) Improve myself. This isn't about losing weight, but I'm not against that. This is more about feeling more confident in my body. This is about improving my writing. Being a better driver. Being able to sift through bullshit faster. Improving myself isn't about being more appealing to the masses, but about being happier with myself. This is the ultimate goal for this year.
I believe this about covers the major goals. Yeah, there are other things I'd like to do like traveling, and going to more shows and shit, but this list right here, these are the true goals for this next year.
Oh, wait, there is one last goal: I'd like to meet the Malek twins. Rami and Sami. Look at them!! Babes. (Don't you dare fight me on this.) I just wanna meet them both. Maybe make out with one. I'd say both, but I feel like that would be some weird ass form of incest that I'd rather avoid. So just one. And I cannot decide which one I'd like to make out with. They're both so fucking OMG delicious in their own way. May I have some bomb ass Malek dreams tonight.
So I leave you with these gifs, and a song from my youth. If someone can help provide guidance on who I should be crushing on harder, Rami or Sami, I would greatly appreciate it.
You still totally sing along to it, don't you? It's okay, I do, too.