I'm seriously starting to think that if I write this affirming
statements I'll start to believe them. Will it happen? Who knows. But
for now, I'm gonna go with this.
A few weeks
back I posted something on Facebook about it possibly being too soon for
a summer song. Is it? Is it ever really? I thought that song would
describe my summer: all the boys and all the action I would get. Yeah,
it's August and I have to say I'm kinda over both. Neither seems to be
happening for some sort of reason. (Can someone give me this reason so I
can stop wondering forever?)
So Summer 2016
is another actionless (sexless?) summer. I would be bitter over this but
I find it so hard to be. I honestly find it hard to be bitter over the
small stuff that really doesn't matter.
All
this aside, I still wanna say that I'm gonna have the best summer ever.
Is this naivety? Am I a smoron for believing this? I wanna say that it's
cautious optimism. That this is me being cautiously optimistic. That I
believe in the best because despite all the hardships and set backs I am
still seriously hoping for the best, but I know, oh how I just KNOW
that non-good things just happen to me.
Anyway...
This
summer has to be the best summer ever. It's been a while since I've had
a noteworthy summer. Last summer was about...okay, I seriously can't
remember. I was dumped via email? And there was more...I think. The
summer before that, I had my shithole job, but I did go to San
Francisco, so there was that. (Sidenote: I should go back there soon.
Like I should be there right now.) The summer before that?? Okay people, I don't even want to go there because I can't remember.
But my summers have seriously lacked that thing that makes them amazing af, or THE BEST SUMMER EVER. I wanna make this the best summer ever. It just has to be. It really does. I'm 25, and have not even had something I can remotely describe as the best summer ever.
So how about we make a list as to what will make this the best summer ever? Let's do it!!
Idk, this is all I can think of. There isn't a lot I want to do this summer. I kind of just want to enjoy what I can. I mean, I do have work, so there is that, but other than that, I don't need my summer to be explosive in any way. I want it to be wonderfully chill, but I suspect that won't be the case.
Welp, here you go kiddies. And I hope you have the best summer ever as well.
- A road trip to LA
- A visit to San Francisco
- A new change to my body
- Some action
- Keeping it casual with boys which will lead to many misadventures
- Small changes to becoming the adult I aspire to be
- Washing my car
- Mild misadventures with those I love leading only to good times #yolo
Idk, this is all I can think of. There isn't a lot I want to do this summer. I kind of just want to enjoy what I can. I mean, I do have work, so there is that, but other than that, I don't need my summer to be explosive in any way. I want it to be wonderfully chill, but I suspect that won't be the case.
Welp, here you go kiddies. And I hope you have the best summer ever as well.
My summer song: