No, that's lame. I should come up with something better, something that doesn't blatantly copy Mr. Robot. (BTW, if you haven't watched the first season stop reading this - no! Finish reading this and then watch the entire first season. And then watch the entire second season. Sam Esmail for lyfe!!!)
So, where was I? I know it has been a while since I've written anything, and seeing as how I pay for this domain, and I'm not using it, this space is becoming a waste of time and space. But not anymore!
I was inspired to write something after some time on Facebook yesterday. Oh, Facebook, one of the worst things created by humans. No, Mark Zuckerberg, I don't care about what mundane things others like, or who's getting married, or who has 30 cats. Mark, I just don't care. And until we get that "unlike" button, that's when I may, possibly start still not caring.
Anyway, bless you Facebook, for the asshole that you are. You help me keep tabs on the assholes of my past; you suggest them as friends. How? Well, I never did delete their numbers. Why would I? In case they ever did text me again, I would want to know which asshole it is, so I know who I'm avoiding. It's a power thing. Please go with it.
Yesterday, in one of my journeys through Facebook, I was checking out who Facebook would suggest to add as a friend, and I came across 4 guys who I went out with so long ago. One of them being the Toilet Texter. Hey, remember that foo? If you don't, here's your refresher. (Hey, am I the only one who's glad that I talk so much public shit about guys that I've gone out with?)
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Because I have his number, I'm gonna go with no, this was not all in my head. So either A) he emotionally cheated/somewhat cheated on his gf with me, a thought which just now crossed my mind, or B) he got back together with his ex.
I'm gonna veto A right off the bat, and I hate to share this because this makes me look bad but, a few weeks back, when Facebook suggested his profile, I checked out what was going on there, and there was no mention of a relationship. He was single. He also posted something which somewhat hinted at him hating the liberal media. *Hint, hint* Republican *hint hint*. I want to go wash my mouth and my brain. So as far as the world was concerned, and I was concerned, in March of this year he was in no relationship.
As for B, it makes sense, but it really doesn't. So he got back with his ex. Okay, that's fine. People do that all the time. Here's what I don't get: why? Back when we were texting, he talked some major smack about his ex. He called her, and I'm so sorry for the ableist language, 'crazy'. He told me that she faked a pregnancy in order to keep them together. He seemed, and this is my impression from texting him, very disturbed by her behavior, which I agree that it is. He seriously gave the impression that he wanted to avoid his ex, and any and all the behavior she exhibited for the rest of his life.
If that is the case why get back with her? Why go there again?
I get that people do go for the second chance. They just do. Maybe something wasn't or stopped working that first time around so if fate gives then a second chance, they got for it. But if your ex clearly does something that traumatizes you why go back? Why do a round two? I can say for myself that knowing what I know, and being in the relationship that I was in, I wouldn't go back, EVER. I would rather die alone than get back together with my ex.
I don't have an answer as for why others do this. I don't get people like that. I wish I did, but I can't explain people's actions, and I honestly don't think I'll ever try to.
Just know that, and this is only something you should consider, but if someone you were with seriously fucked with you the first time, it may be in your best interest to not go back there. You owe yourself that favor. Do better for yourself.
Welp, until next time!
Here's a song about your ex's: Ex's and Oh's by Elle King